Anti Social

Sometimes the less I eat the less I can handle being around other people, I don't know why this is. Today is my son's bday as I mentioned earlier. We had a party and my bestie showed up with her bf and his brother,my husband was there as well with a friend of his I don't really like and then all our family. I had a very hard time staying in the conversation, here and there something would catch my attention and I would join in but I kept finding my self staring off in to space or getting anxious like I had somewhere else to be. My bestie (I'll call her C) and I wandered away a couple times and when it's just us two I felt calm. She's my biggest real life thinspiration btw. Maybe it's the fact that M and I aren't living together right now and I'm trying to figure out if I really want to stay married to him. I love him, I really do but there are times when I feel like we are from different planets. He does treat me really good though. It's like a tug of war going on in my mind. Anyways I managed to skip out on eating cake, I had diet coke and a handful of tortilla chips. That's all I've had so far but there is left over cake in the house so we'll see if I can resist temptation the rest of the day. Sweets are my weakness, I can resist anything else easily but I always have to remind myself why I can't eat sweets. 


Does anyone else get anti social when they've been restricting?


I WILL BE THIN


Reverse thinspiration this is sick and it is what happens to people who eat...