Buddy?

I forgot to mention in my post that I really need a buddy who I can text when I'm having a tough time, I need someone to tell me to suck it up and deal with the pain and remind me of the wonderful results I will see if I stick it out. If anyone else would like the same, reply to this post and email me. I would love to have someone to talk to that understands. Peace and Love girlies*

I will not eat...

I will not eat.  I will not eat.  I will not eat.  This is the rule, everything else is bearable if I am in control in this area.  I can deal with the fact that my mom hates me and that I'm married to the wrong person if I just stay in control.  I can not think about anything else.  Because if I do everything will turn to shit. I will think about those beautiful bones and being the thinnest girl at my college. That is my goal, I will not stop until I get there.

There is nothing more beautiful than this...

My Passion or Security?

Hello my beauties! I have been unbelievably busy with school/homework, my son and everything in between but I am loving every minute! I love college and I'm working on a scholarship essay right now. I really want to win, just to be able to say I won a scholarship would look great on my resume and I am very competitive in nature so naturally I want to kick every one's ass! You see every one in a certain class I'm taking has to apply for one as an assignment and I don't want to sound cocky or mean but the majority of my class mates are not that bright. There are quite a few older people who are coming back to college after twenty years and are terrified of modern technology i.e computers so I just don't see them being capable of typing up a paper with correct grammar. I can't stand any one in my class. There is one girl who is fairly close to my to my age but she is ghetto and a little trashy (even though she could be really pretty) and she is obnoxious. I just want to go to school and do amazing. I'm not into socializing with these people. I know I sound like a stuck up bitch but you would get it if you could see the kind of people that are in my classes. I can't wait until I transfer to the university. It will be so much better than community college. But community college is cheaper to get my pre-recs out of the way and earn my associates degree. Then it's off to bigger and better things! So I am majoring in Journalism and minoring in fashion so I could write for a fashion mag but I have also been thinking about majoring in theater. My ultimate passion is centered around art. I would be so happy doing anything where I can let my creative juices flow and get paid for it. Now you may say "why even think about it, just do what you love?" Job security. Plain and simple. I love writing too and obviously that takes my creativity as well but I would love to do anything to do with the arts even more. I'm just worried about what kind of job will make me good money and if I can count on having a job with that major. So if I did major in theater there is a lolcal theater program that is very big and to work for them would be amazing on my resume. I guess I'm just worried that having a job involving the arts would not offer as much job security as say journalism. I need some opinions on this girls. And if you read this far thank you! I know I rambled on. So what do you all think about majoring in any arts degree? Not just theater give me ideas! I value your opinions!